i've noticed that when i write these little "entry's" i feel inclined to say "you" or "we"...which is strange, because i'm not really writing to a certain person or group of people. wait...that's not true, i'm writing to all of the friendly people who read my little TD...therefore 3.001 people. anyway, i just thought i'd point out the fact that instead of writing to a journal, i'm talking to a group of people...because multiple people read this. now... if i were to write in a journal, say in a notebook, where nobody would read it, then i would still say "we" or "you" because i like to tell the voices in my head what i'm thinking :D

i miss home, the turtles next to my house, my church, dave's house, HEB, my pool..
i miss driving to school, practice, dave's house(at high speeds), foster's house, to movies, blockbuster...
i miss playing cards at lunch, playing halo for hours, riding bikes all day(and playing basketball for that one whole day), pizza fridays, cell group, parking in front of my house, watching the rain roll down my street, watching the sun set behind the trees in my backyard, watching the streetlights go on at night...
i miss dave, mandi, hasown, matt, liz, michelle, droo, amy, foster, ramo, chuck, all my divers, haircut david, james, STEEEEVE, teffy g oh 3...
i miss everything i left...which as you can see, is too much stuff. so send me an email if you're reading this, even if it is only to bitch at me for not including you.

if i could kick my ass....i would

Spider eyes open so wide ---
Always want me to come inside ---
From their eternal glare, I try to hide ---
So deep, so dark, so full of lies ---
How foolish I was to confide... ---
In those spider eyes open so wide

I'm With You
by: Avril Lavigne
^^ME GUSTA MUCHO^^ go find it and listen to it, please. i don't know what it is, but i feel like every one of her songs pulls on my heart...for some stupid inexplainable reason.

don't care about someone you can't help, it's not worth it...and a major waste of emotions
i don't want to let her go, because i'm not really holding on to anything
if she leaves me, i wish i were dead...
...but if she doesn't i'm not really alive.

I'm thinking of changing the sites name to "thought dumpster" cuz that's all it really is, hehehe, anyway, i have a history test to take, so i better get to studying.

apparently, i can get better than average on an IQ test, but not remember to put the link in my post....*slaps self*

www.intelligencetest.com

so there is this IQ test online, and i went to the site thinking that it was gunna be a waste of time with questions like: "if joe has 1/3 of a potato and decides to harvest it in the winter while eating another potato, and sitting on three bunkfelts of potatos, how many potatoes does joe have?" of course, everyone can breeze through a test like that (especially that question, the obvious answer is 1.23). but this one actually involved geography, math and logic to get answers. it was fun to take, and it pissed me off when i found out that i wasn't correct on 8 of the 30 something questions i answered. i seriously suggest that everyone take this IQ test, just for fun...just so you can know where you stand in society, in terms of brains. have fun, and pretend to be smart while you're taking the test. email me the results, if ya want, and if i know you :-)

i suck at school
i really do, i can't ever maintain a level of concentration that takes in all the information i need in order to do assignments, take notes, BE A STUDENT
i hate going to class, and falling asleep because i'm so disinterested. and it's one of those things that takes 5938% effort from me in order to change;
and if you haven't noticed, i don't think i'm quite willing to put 5938% effort forward. i WANT to do good, so i can prove i'm smart. but every time i step into a classroom, or start studying... it just doesn't work. i don't function like a normal student, and i don't want to, cuz i enjoy being who i am too much. there is no set routine that i follow, or any kind of procedure i've made for myself, and i've never had a routine in my whole life....so....yeah....

what does it take to make a friend?
are there requirements, prerequisites?
is there a written test, multiple choice, or a final performance of fundamental friend-like qualities?
does the passage of time together cause this bond?
or is it the times together that creates a friend for life, till death?

i think tomorrow, i'll post some of the random nighttime poetry i've come up with
so keep your eyes out for that....

howdy
i'm evan, 19, a diver, a freshman at mizzou, a christian, and a goofball
i'll be using this page to divulge certain thoughts in my noodle that don't come out in the daytime. sometimes these thoughts can be entertaining
.....sometimes....
other times they can be VERY entertaining, so please feel free to read them and tell me how great they are
or just to tell me that i'm very much deranged, either way i meet new people, hee hee
that's all i got for # 1
adios