JANRUAWY

It is now the last day of 2003, and I have decided to take some time and reflect upon the past year's happenings....

....I've come to the conclusion that I have no memory of 2003 and that it doesn't bother me that much because i don't think alot happened. Sure, some things happened, but for the most part -it wasn't very memorable- (except for December (; ) BUT ANYWAY! ENOUGH REFLECTION!!!!
I'M BACK BABY! I'M BAAAAAAAACK!!!!!!

I understand that many of you have been DYING to know how i did this past semester, and the answer is coming up...right now PROBATION! w00t, that's right, I'm on disciplinary probation for the plagarism, and now i'm on ACADEMIC PROBATION FOR MY GRADES! and i also understand that this is nothing to be proud about...but i don't care because it means i get to dive, and it also gives me another semester of college with more changes. These changes are coming MAAAAAAAAYBE in the form of medication. I'm finally willing to accept that, because I have come to terms with my inability to be an at-least-decent student. So yeah.... CHAAAAAANGE...wooo...scary, but good. Also other things. New things. Um...i'll post later with a '03 rap up and an '04 preview.

TIME...TO...KOOKURROOOOO!!!!!!!!

This is the only post i'll have for a few days, because...

I NEED TO STUDY.

So I'm going to read the novel for History, get more notes from my classmate in there, and go to both of the reviews...THEN STUDY MY ASS OFF.
In speech, i'm going to STUDY MY ASS OFF with the study guide, make flash cards, re-write my notes, and go over the information again and again with my buddy Angela.

Amy will be here. Tomorrow. I miss her more than ever now that she is going to come visit. (Amy- HURRY! I NEED THAT HUG WE TALKED ABOUT!) I just hope that I can concentrate while she's here. I feel bad that she is coming during one of the busiest times of the year, but it's going to be so nice to see her and have some QUALITY wife&husband time.

Lastly before I depart for Cramsville, I know what ONE game I want for xmas: The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King video game for Playstation 2. If you are a friend/RELATIVE and are reading this, please let the qualified personell know this information by the appropriate time. Thank you.

And on that note, i'm off to get to work PASSING MY CLASSES. send support any way you can. just call and say "EVAN, YOU ARE SMART, YOU CAN STUDY, DO NOT GIVE UP! AND BY THE WAY I THINK YOU ARE LEET!" then hang up. That's all I need. Even if it's a message in my voicebox, it will GREATLY appreciated. The louder the better...oh yeah, leave your name too.
SO CALL ME AND GET ME PUMPED UP FOR FINALS! (573) 999-PIBB (no, i'm not kidding, that's my fone number)

You will hear from me prolly from grandma's house when I get there on the 20th or something.
CALL AND LEAVE MESSAGE!
AIM MESSAGES ARE ALSO ACCEPTED!

Plagarism is a bitch. (Watters 2003)

As a few of you know, but also as a few of you DON'T know...In October, I wrote a paper for my English class, but while finding information, I copy/pasted two paragraphs into the word document from an online encyclopedia. After much more searching and typing, I wrapped up my conclusion, saw 3 pages and said "done" (actually it was more like "f*ing english"). I had forgotten entirely about the two paragraphs, and had not quoted them, or cited the source...this is plagarism. AND NOW THE VERDICT! WILL EVAN BE EXPELLED FROM THE UNIVERSITY OF MISSOURI?!?! WILL HE BE FORCED TO DO PUSHUPS!?!?!? DOES THE ORANGE IN CARROTS COME FROM URANIUM!?!?!!?!?!?! ALL THESE QUESTIONS WILL BE ANSWERED IN NEXT WEEK'S BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (don't you just love suspense?) But seriously, i am hella busy and have no time to post to tell you what my situation is regarding PLAGARISM!!! oooh...ahhhh...


or then again, maybe i know exactly what happened and i'm just not telling you...hmm...


on second thought, i'll just tell you now...


VERDICT: PROBATION

women

Thanks to nigel for this. so so true.

WORDS WOMEN USE:


FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they
are right and you need to shut up. Never use "fine" to describe how
a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments.

FIVE MINUTES
This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your
football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so
it's an even trade.

NOTHING
This means "something," and you should be on your toes. "Nothing"
is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to
turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. 'Nothing" usually
signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with
'Fine'

GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows)
This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over
"Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine"

GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows)
This means "I give up" or "do what you want because I don't care"
You will get a "Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead" in just a few minutes,
followed by "Nothing" and "Fine" and she will talk to you in about
"Five Minutes" when she cools off.

LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often
misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an
idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time
standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"

SOFT SIGH
Again, not a word, but a nonverbal statement. "Soft Sighs" means
that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and
she will stay content.

THAT'S OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. "That's Okay" is often used with the word "Fine" and in conjunction with a "Raised Eyebrow.

GO AHEAD.
At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty
big trouble.

PLEASE DO
This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the
chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn't get a "That's Okay"

THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you're welcome.

THANKS A LOT
This is much different from "Thanks." A woman will say, "Thanks A
Lot" when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you
have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the
"Loud Sigh." Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the "Loud
Sigh," as she will only tell you "Nothing"

OMG ZLEDA RULZ!!!!!!!!

I was just looking on Amazon.com for things i might want for xmas and i stumbled across this review of Zelda: The Wind Waker...

***** (5/5 stars)Hard, chalenging, but perfect, November 11, 2003
Reviewer: An Amazon.com Customer
It was so neat. U think your done at about the midlle of the game but u arnt. Who ever WOULD HAVE thought Tetre was a... sorry u have tO buy the game it is worth every penny.
sound-7.9
grapicps-+10
color-9.5
iteams-8.9
chalenge-10
RPG GAME-10
ENTERTAINING FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME-9.9*
* It will get boring if u play it 7 straight hours
nintendos best-9.6
beats orican of time- yes
Beats marjurtes mask- yes
always fun-10
Over all out of 100-97.89

many activites that are extra but can help you defeat gannon-10
49 ISLANDS YOU CAN VISIT COOOOOLLLLL
U MUST TAKE MY WORD FOR THIS GAME IT IS THE BOOM i HATED ZELDA UNTIL THIS GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sO much beter that Mario
Weven though I love Mario but you got to admit he getting old time for zelda to take a play at it
BELIVE ME WHY WOULD I WAST MY TIME TYPING THIS IF I DID NOT WANT YOU TO HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ps im actulley 14 but i had to usde this kid versison but i had to tell u how cool this is

Too bad i read this while in study hall, otherwise i would have DIED laughing my face off. Even if this is some 35 yr old trying to be funny...it's still funny :D OMG ZEDLA RULZ! W00T GTG LOL KK THX OMG BYE

Also today i tried a McGriddle at mcdonalds....it gave me gas.
FUCK YOU SCHOOL! ALMOST DONE! BIATCH! *SLAP!*

scared

i'm scared
of anything that has become comfortable in my life
anything that i'm used to...i'm afraid of
i'm afraid of being able to dive
i'm afraid of accepting bad grades
i'm so very afraid of being so alone all the time
i am afraid of myself...my habits, my personality, my choices, my passions, my dreams, my thoughts, my actions...i'm afraid of being myself every day i wake up
there is no problem with being your own person...but when you are being your own person, and you don't like who that is...then what good is being yourself?
what is the good of waking up fearing a mistake you might make? or wondering which information you will forget?
I know i'm scaring myself...and that is what makes it so scary in the first place.
i'm not doing anybody any good by making all these mistakes over and over again

and Albert had it right "Insanity is doing the same thing over again, expecting different results."

walking

no matter how fast i try to go, it seems like i keep walking slower and slower
my feet hit the ground harder
...but leave no footprints
like i'm constantly falling, regaining my balance
always behind, never on time
without the energy to tie my shoes, i trip through my day wondering how long i have to be awake
i only wish i would fall, so i wouldn't have to move anymore
nobody notices me, because nobody can
staring at the ground, feeling the aches in my body...
what did i do? how?

fucking title IX

I hate football. It makes so much money and is so popular that everything revolves around the sport on any level. High school, football = god...college, football = money...NFL = superbowl HOLY SHIT WHAT A WASTE OF TIME! I don't expect any interest in my sport, and i shouldn't..because football recieves every bit of sports luxury there is. and i'm pissed off right now because of this fahqing speech, so let me vent, ok?

summary: Football makes lots of people think they are making lots of money. But where is the profit when you keep having to spend more and more money to build BIGGER STADIUMS, NEW WEIGHT ROOMS, and TO FIND BETTER PLAYERS

i'm sick of gender equality. where is my athletic equality?
I'M PISSED OFF!

Why does it have to start all over again?

December 1st

I'm 20 years old today, and for the first time in my life, my future has finally found a place in my consiousness. I'm really observing my birthday this year. For the first time in my life, i don't want to get older. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to step out of my world within a daydream. There are things that i am being forced to think about. Serious things. Important things, long term lasting result kind of things. It's so scary for me, because i feel like the rest of my life is starting. I feel like i've been born again. and i KNOW that that sounds cheesy and superficial, but in reality, i don't think i'm the person i have been for the past 20 years. I feel like something is going to happen soon. Kind of like the ripply lines in movies that show you what the future will be like...i'm waiting for that fairy godmother magic stuff to show me that i'm going to be happy in 20 years. I'm waiting for my future to start unrolling under my feet. and i'm also waiting to be SOMETHING. i mean, to be something for myself. i want to accomplish something and be proud of something, and work hard for something, and LOVE something and dammit, i want to love someone for real. i wish i could find something in my life that lets me be passionate...i want to look forward to something. i want a goal, a dream to reach for... because it seems that i can't make one for myself. This is not a plea for help, but more of a driver change. I'm already changing, so i might as well make it worth wild...and oh yeah, i'm twenty years old, which means i'm OLD. and screw you for disagreeing with me, because you're only as old as you think you are, and dammit, i feel old.