AND ANOTHER THING!

Sorry for two surveys in a row, but i get so addicted.

Other than that, I feel like I would bring everybody down if I just talked about how disgustingly lonely I am. So with that, I won't. Even though i'll probably end up talking about it.

Mom called from their ski trip and the update is: 2 down, 1 howard that nobody cares about broke hand.
They went skiing with our neighbors, the Howards. The two boys are pretty damn annoying sometimes, and one of them broke his hand yesterday. Also in the news: Kelsey bumped into a tree and broke her pelvis. shit that sucks. SHOCKING BREAKING NEWS!: on the way down the hill, dad fell and broke his collar bone. shit. that. sucks. So i'm all flustered and worrying like an emotional freak. It really bites that the only thing on my mind is something like this.

So if there was a way to label my blog "melancholy" for a post..that would be today. I just...i mean i hate feeling like this. I don't think i'm really all extremely SAD, down at the negative end of the spectrum. And of course i'm not HAPPY. So what the hell is going on with me that i can't find a way to bust outta this "gray area" of crappy lonely sometimes inconsiderate and ugliness....wow i'll stop there.

ADDICTIVE SURVEYS

I stole this from Kelleh's blog, which is where i usually get these from (and Teffy)...

Twenty Questions

How are you today?
effing tired. worrying about mi familia and their broken bones from skiing. and on top of that i have to dive today...--correction-- i GET TO dive today

Do you like your job?
my job = dive and learn...learning isn't going so hot, but the diving works. looking into a job this summer doing...um...ok so i'm not LOOKING yet, but i need a job this summer

Is it possible to get to know God?
yep, you can learn all about him/her/God if you want to

What kind of meat is this?
sauteed tenderloin cutlet (i dunno, those are just fun meat words)

What are the best methods of teaching reading?
i have not a clue. reading came easy to me because i'm a visual learning kid, so......best = reading Chronicles of Narnia EVERY night

Where were you born, and where do you live now?
Hackettstown, NJ next to the M&M factory. I live in Columbia, MO mostly but my heart is in SA and my fam is in STL.

What does your mom refer to you by?
Evan, mostly

What makes someone a "sell-out"?
When i say they do...those whores

If the World was ending tomorrow, who would you kick it with tonight?
kick it = party with? I DON'T KNOW! a buncha really good friends that would take too long to list

What book is your Bible? And you can't pick the Bible.
No real book fits that description for me...i need to read more

If you ate pasta and antipasta, would you still be hungry?
WHAT THE HELL IS ANTIPASTA????? and yes i would still be hungry

If someone opens fire at a busy McDonalds, which would save more lives -- phoning the police quickly or a couple of armed customers?
wait wait, lets go back a bit...somebody's shooting at a McDonalds?..hell, if they aren't hurting any innocents, i'd join 'em. RPG! CLEAR!

People keep writing that in a small group, Al Gore can be charming, natural and witty. How small does the group have to be?
I R not political but the answer is 7

A tiger, its left eye is blind, now, on its left side and right side, each has a pile of grasses, so, which side it will choose?
this might be the worst question i've ever seen. (i say that for every survey) but seriously...
WTF?!?!?!?!?

Do you know any restaurants in London that will serve a vegetarian Thanksgiving dinner?
I'm not all that certain that Europeans celebrate Thanksgiving...

Do they have potato chips in Europe? Do they taste the same as ours?
yes they have chips, but they eat them with ketchup or something gross like that

Do you sing along to ad jingles?
only the Coors light "wingman" song...not "wingtail"....ok maybe i sing to the folgers song too

What Can You Do for Us That Other Candidates Can't?
me do backflip, watch...*flip* yay. (why is every word capitalized except for 'for'?)

What are you wearing?
clothes, simply enough. who cares otherwise? ..unless you are strangely attracted to me after reading this post and wish to have an idea of what i look like physically... IN THAT CASE i'm wearing a tuxedo

Getting to know you...as the email says

1. WHAT IS YOUR FIRST NAME: Evan Whocaresaboutmymiddlename Watters

2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Greenish shants

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? myself chewing the Fritos Flavor Twists Honey BBQ flaver chips

4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE? 7422 (PIBB)

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? (see #3)

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? (see #2) GREEEEEEEN

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Beautiful, kinda chilly but VERY sunny

8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Kim Martin....at 10 in the morning

9. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? neck or hair...mostly neck

10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? yep, David sent this to me...but i converted it to the blog

11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? good, kinda peeved that i woke up an hour early to be late for my class that started an hour after i was late for it....(if that made sense, congratulations)

12. FAVORITE DRINK? SOBE LIZARD LIGHTNING!!!

13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? err...Southern Comfort?

14. FAVORITE SPORTS? d1v1n6, hockey, chess...........

15. HAIR COLOR? brown

16. EYE COLOR? (see #15)

17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? no

18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES: Vick-21, Weel-17, Pie-15ish

19. FAVORITE MONTH? May? (wtf favorite month?)

20. FAVORITE FOOD? the delights of Hardees do me well every time :D

21. LAST MOVIES YOU WATCHED? Dawn of the Dead with dan, and The Wedding Singer also with dan....we are heterosexual

22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? WHAT THE FRIKKIN...um...i'll get back to you on that

23. FAVORITE RELAXATION SPOT? under stars

24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? yes indeed i am

25. FIRST TEENAGE (OR PRE-TEEN) MOVIE STAR CRUSH? Jennifer Love Hewitt?

26. SUMMER OR WINTER? SUMMER OMG NOT WINTER DIE WINTER DIE DIE DIE

27. HUGS OR KISSES? hugs for everybody

28. RELATIONSHIPS OR CASUAL DATING? can't say that i've ever been involved in casual dating, so relationships

29. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? chocolatay

30. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? write back? meh...leave comments, YES!

31. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Teffy because she hearts me

32. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? David, the one who emailed this to me...because i don't think he reads my blog

33. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? 1324 APT B Ashland rd with Vick

34. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? what is book

35. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? my mouse pad is spiffy, it's a mini rug, and it's got a tiger layed out like an indian palace rug or something (and it's green too)

36. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? CLUE or Risk...it's a tie

37. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? played frozen throne and went to bed and...had dreams...

39. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? yeparoonies

40. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? my inspiration is incalcuable due to my daily discovery of new and amazing things

41. PLAIN OR SALTED POPCORN? reg. corn. on. cob.

42. FAVORITE CAR? Audi TT quattro turbo

43. FAVORITE FLOWER? there is no real graceful way to answer this if you're a guy...um...

44. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 5, one of which is obselete due to my parents changing the locks on me

45. CAN YOU JUGGLE? i can juggle two things at once...but not 3...screw that crazy shit

46. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK? Saturday

47. RED OR WHITE WINE? this is the single most important question on here...so let me take my time....ummmmmmmmm RED! NO WAIT CAN I CHANGE? WHITE I WANT WHITE! BUT RED IS SO GOOD TOO! OMG I CAN'T CHOOSE!!! (WTF!?!?!?!?!)

48. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? reflected on being so freaking old

49. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD? i wish i did, sign me up

50. LIFETIME GOALS? make lifetime goals

-~=+{[( And as always, i'm going to add some questions of my own. This time in the same fashion they were asked...)]}+=~-

51. FAVORITE SPOON?

52. AA OR AAA BATTERIES?

53. WHAT DID YOU SAY WHEN YOU LAST STUBBED YOUR TOE?

54. WASH YOUR FEET LATELY?

55. FAVORITE HOUR OF THE DAY?

56. FAVORITE KEY ON KEYBOARD?

57. HOW MANY CALORIES HAVE YOU CONSUMED TODAY?

58. WEARING A WATCH?

59. TOOTH COLOR?

60. and lastly WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE TALK SHOW HOST AND WHY DOES THEIR HAIR DO THAT?


the comments page is for YOU...not for pibb

all i have are stars

the smell of sadness is in my nose. it doesn't float around, it sticks to things.......
depression sticks...and i feel it just as easily as i smell it
there's no deodorizer, i'm stuck smelling this untill it goes away.

and how many times have you heard me say "i'm stuck"?
how encouraging is this for me?
what kind of world do i have to deal with today? why would i even want to go outside when i feel this "STUCK"?

stay inside, cry all day, wish things were different, never find a solution, lose my mind over and over and over again.

i get new medication today. that's a plus. i'm stuck on old stuff, though. that's a mixed sign...very plus-like, but it never really looks like that on the outside

i don't have anything like a movie to wrap around myself, or a song to hold all day long....all i have are stars outside at night, and those are enough to keep me happy as i go to sleep

morning posts suck.

so i have a problem...so what

Hello, my name is Jarman, and i'm a GAME-A-HOLIC!!!!11oneonei'mexcited

I went a little overboard when renting games for the incessantly long gaming session known as Spring Break. Rented Baldur's Gate 2, Simpsons: hit & run, and Metal Arms: A GLITCH IN THE SYSTEM (your character's name is Glitch). I get to St. Louis on Tuesday afternoon and after watching my little sister run WAY faster than everybody else at her track meet, i started the slew of video game playing with weel. But besides the fact that i enjoy video games...I really like being home. Mom makes food, and the food is always DELICIOUS. Dad always has something new to tell me, and sometimes it's kinda(very) important(parking tickets that CHAD needs to explain to me and dad). And when i'm here, i'm with my little brother and sister...who are incredible to be around...(cue sitcom "reflection" music). I mean, I only wish I was their age again so I could hang out with them and be their buddy...

HOLY SHIT I'M OLD!
Ow, that hurts. How old am I now? I feel like i've grown so much since the days in Texas where I would literally do NOTHING at home. I was actually productive today, I did some yardwork, cleaned up after myself, and BEST OF ALL, I wasn't so distracted by video games that I was late to pick Lee up, or late dropping Lee off. I'm responsible now. That's scary, folks. Very scary. It also confuses me to no end why I can feel so potentially successfull when i'm HOME...but when i get back to school and sit in class, it's like an imaginary idiot helmet falls on my head and paying attention to ANYTHING takes an amazing amount of energy.

This also goes in the same befuddled folder as: why me feel so good on diving board, but not feel so good when not on diving board? I know that's an eloquent way of putting it, but it's so strange. I can be wearing a tiny speedo on a 16 ft peice of aluminum over water and feel more comfortable than wearing any variety of clothes in a classroom. Sometimes it makes me wonder if i'd rather be noticed...because i do dive a lot better in front of a crowd. But classrooms are FULL of people, and i'm given every opportunity to show off every day in there...but WHY NOT? It IS a self-esteem thing. I'm not confident with myself in terms of my attention span. But the befuddling part is WHY...WHY DOUBT WHEN I KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MYSELF

i don't know, Evan, stop yelling
ok, sorry...i just get all worked up about it sometimes
i understand, but maybe there isn't anything left to understand
that's bull, everything can be explained. There is no reason i can't figure this out
i'm simply saying that there IS no reason
in that case, why is there any difference at all between my confidence level and my environment?
stop asking so many hard questions
stop avoiding answering them, ya pansy
stop talking to yourself
...fair enough

i apologize for that, it happens occasionally. But this is where the comments page should flourish with activity like Bennigans on st. patty's day.

video games are cool

So i have been playing Prince of Persia: Sands of Time lately on the PS2, and I noticed something about it that was really awesome(other than the spectacular gameplay and levels and overall aspect). The game didn't focus on the villian at all. He was a bad guy, who betrayed somebody, and wanted the thing that gave ME power...but beyond that, he had next to no personality, which might have hurt the game a bit in terms of storyline. But the game is still AWESOME. It's awesome because your character, the Prince, is SO COOL. He flips, runs on walls, cartwheels, swings on poles, jumps, jumps, controls time with a nifty dagger, flamboyantly kills his enemies with said dagger and uses a sword to boot. The mere character that you are running and jumping around with is so awesome and deep (due to the lovely uber-skinny princess that follows you around and you fall in love with) creates a world that surpasses that of most other video games. Sure the art and levels and music brings an air of awesomeness with it. But DUH!...you are staring at your baggy-pants prince throughout the whole game more than the levels around him. Or am i wrong? But anyway, i loved this game and loved the ending.

On a similar note, i've been playing the snes game Super Punchout! on my emulator and i STILL FREAKING LOVE THIS GAME. The last guy in the champ. mode is so hard to beat for one reason: he intimidates me. Now he has the advantage with more health, stronger hits, unique and fancy moves, but when it boils down to it, he's no harder than any other char in the game...he's just the undefeated champ...that nobody has beaten....and the last boxer in the championship mode. THIS IS WHY I LOVE GAMES! YOU TAKE THE ROLE OF THE NO-NAME BOXER AND END UP SQUARING OFF WITH NICK BRUISER THE UNDEFEATED CHAMPION OF THE ENTIRE GAME OMG THIS IS AWESOME!!!!! So i have trouble fighting him because he's scary. He's the best. And i am afraid of him. But oh well it's just a game.

I like video games.

BAH!

For no reason other than to get something done, i'm going to do something that i have abstained from doing...

I'm going to do a writing assignment in my blog.

The only real reason i'm doing such an unspeakable thing is because it's a fairly free-range idea that isn't an essay, and isn't really much of anything. It's just a one-page weekly thing. So here goes.

I have to comment on a Greek play redone in modern times. I have to write about how i feel about such plays.

To start off, they are freaky. The masks present one expression on the character's face throughout the entire play. Whether they have eyes or not, reading emotion from an actor is nearly impossible. For this reason, i believe, we as a culture have become facinated with actors and movies. The amount of drama that unfolds in any particular Greek play is done solely on dialouge. Sure the actor has a degree of expression in his voice or body movement, but when a character kills his mother with a tone and look of a overhead train station announcer, then the drama is lost to the audience. Given, the audience is involved moreso in the production because they must create emotions, create tears or scowls. I didn't like how these full-sized puppets portrayed scenes of great emotion.
Other than the lack of intensity on the actors' parts, the other thing about the greek play was that the chorus would basically narrarate, while also being part of the story. It's not unusual for a character in the story to also be the story's narrarator. But when 12 people simply stand still and recite lines (while timed and coreographed nicely) I became very bored. Also their masks provided a distraction in a very eery sense. I would have rather watched a black stage spit forth the chorus instead of the creepy 12 men.
All discrepencies aside, when I try to imagine the amazement the Greeks had when they first devised this method of portraying their myths and stories on stage, I become very amazed. Who could have thought nowadays that 12 men in grey cloacks wearing expressionless masks could bring such crowds to amphitheaters. In ancient Greece, the audience must have been on the edge of their seats to learn how the following acts would play out. Like many modern movies, they know how it ends, and they know how it happens. But the moments recreated on stage bring the audience to places they have never been before, and they are face to face (or mask) with people they have only heard stories about. And what they take from the unfolding of such dramatic events is different for each person. But if I were present back in those times watching these plays for the first time, I know that i would probably enjoy them as much as i enjoy any modern movie now.

Well...it's 3:30 and i'm RETARDED for staying up this late. I can't sleep and I can't focus on anything. ESPECIALLY school. I indulge in anything that i can get my hands on, and despise anything that gets inbetween me and those indulgents (indulgents?). Anyway, lemme know if that's a crappy paper or not. Only supposed to be 1 page long, i might not have made that...but i can't tell on the blog format. OMG STOP TALKING 3AM BYE

dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit

i can't write this paper.

it is a shadow on my SOUL

no matter which words come out of my mouth, or which ones go on the page, nothing makes any sense
i feel like i've been cheated out of letters in scrabble
i'm supposed to build a bucket out of nets
i'm supposed to create a triangle with two toothpicks (AND I CAN'T BREAK THE TOOTHPICKS APART!!! SO DON'T ASK)

I HAVE WRITTEN NOTHING. I AM SCREWED. I CAN'T EVEN TAKE HELP ANYMORE.

HOPELESS
SAD
ANGRY

sick sick sick *sneeze* DAMMIT!

My lips are chapped and taste like bathroom grime.
My fingers are as frozen as the ink in this pen i write with.
My nose feels like an upside down bucket of snot.
My ears are completely numb from the wind, and the howling seashell noise is all i hear.
My eyes rejoice when closed, because they are reminded of sleep and how sweet and wonderful sleep can be...and i wander away from the muffled noise of the classroom to a pleasant beach of sun and warmth and
THEN i sneeze and my body warps into a mucus launching creature that writhes for a split second of discomfort only to be followed by the inevitable moments of embarrassment, disgust, and panic as i try to hide the handful of previously warm, now cold goo that covers my upper lip and fingers. Another futile sniffle drags some of the goo back into my Rudolph-like nose, and my faded eyes glance cautiously to see if anybody watched my menacing "sneeze face" erupt a blast of snot... and as guilty as a puppy, i attempt to discard my boogar sample gracefully while getting out of my desk.

The cold hard fact rises in my thoughts like an approaching road sign:

BEING SICK SUCKS

and my face advertises this fact blantantly when i look in the mirror. Billboard slogans like Exhaustion, Congestion, Coughing, Sneezing are displayed in bright neon as i blow my nose with the stiff dry brown paper towels. Wiping my nose feels like raking leaves across my face, and clears me up for only a few moments before exiting the bathroom when i sneeze again and launch another volley of evil disgusting snot. I curse my way back to the brown paper towels wishing spring break could cure me.
And i know it will, because i'll stop sneezing EVENTUALLY.

addendum

I didn't qualify for nationals like i wanted to. I was sick throughout the entire meet, and still am sick. So that means that i will get to enjoy my spring break without diving without school and without anything at all. It is a bummer that i didn't qualify, but then again it has brought some perspective into my life YET AGAIN (isn't diving great?). Without nationals, i am forced to focus on school and nothing else. It is my only priority right now. Given these thoughts...i seriously consider what i should do with the rest of my life, because diving is the real reason i'm here...which is a bad reason. There are no majors that really catch my interest...and that sucks. Kinda like i'm on a desert island waiting for just the right boat to come rescue me. Fortunately, there are diving boards on the beach to keep me busy and interested in being stuck on this Isle de College.
So there's your metaphor for the day, i hope everybody likes those survey things cuz i can't help but fill 'em out when i see 'em. But i have really been procrastinating on this paper, and it's due at 4 (current time in pibbland: 1:51pm) WISH ME LUCK!

survey

{x} what's your full name? Evan Campbell Watters
{x} what are your nicknames? Mr. Pibb, Jarman, Evvy
{x} how old are you? TWENTY
{x} when is your birthday? 12/1/83
{x} how tall are you? aprox. 5'9-or-10"
{x} what color are your eyes? brown
{x} where were you born? Hackettstown, NJ
{x} where do you live now? Columbia, MO
{x} piercings? nope, the holes that i have in my body are disgusting enough...who would want MORE? AND THEN PUT NEEDLES IN THE HOLES!
{x} tattoos? me wants a sobe lizard tatty...but prolly not
{x} do you get along with your parents? yes
{x} can you do anything freakish with your body? jumping, flipping, whistling, and my hair is kinda freaky
{x} when is your bedtime? usually around 1-2am
{x} what size shoe are you? i dunno...it's been awhile since i got shoes...10?
{x} have you ever been arrested? No
{x} who's your role model? I don't neccisarily think that we choose our role models. A role model is someone that we subliminally mimic or act like or want to be like
{x} what is the best thing you have done? what the heck kinda question is this...um...i have made people laugh the best
{x} what type of shampoo/conditioner do you use? the one that is closest to me
{x} do you have any pets? not personally, but the family has 3 gatos
{x} do you have any siblings? Vick, Weel, and Pie
{x} nationalities? weird
{x} what is your astrological sign? Saggitarius (sp.)

Y O U R P R E F E R E N C E S
(x) serious or be funny? FUNNY
{x} coke or pepsi? PEPSI
{x} whole or skim milk? WHOLE
{x} single or taken? SINGLE
{x} simple or complicated? SIMPLE
{x} law or anarchy? I DUNNO, BUT I'M GOING TO ANSWER IN CAPS LOCK FOR THIS ONE TOO
{x} flowers or angels? UH...BOTH?
{x} grey or gray? I SAY GRAY
{x} read or write? WRITE IN BLOG
{x} color or black-and-white photos? COLORS, COLOURS, DA COLORS DUKE! DA COLORS!!!!!!!
{x} sunrise or sunset? SUNSET
{x} m&m's or skittles? SKITTLES
{x} rap or rock? ROCK
{x} stay up late or wake up late? YES
{x} tv or radio? TV
{x} is it pop or soda? SODA
{x} eat an apple or an orange? ORANGE
{x} what came first the chicken or the egg? THE EGG...BIRDS EVOLVED FROM LIZARDS, SO ONE DAY A LIZARD POPPED OUT A CHICKEN EGG AND VIOLA!
{x} dead or alive? ALIVE
{x} tall members of the opposite sex or short? WTF SHORT?
{x} emerald or ruby? EMERALD GREEN GREEN GREEN
{x} left or right? LEFT, RIGHT? RIGHT.
{x} ten acquaintances or one best friend? TRY 200 ACQUAINTANCES
{x} high or drunk? NO
{x} green beans or carrots? BEANS
{x} low fat or fat free? NO!!!!!
{x} what is your biggest fear in the world? NOT BEING ABLE TO FIX A MISTAKE
{x} kids or no kids? KIDS
{x} cat or dog? DOG
{x} mustard or ketchup? MUSTARD
{x} hard cover books or soft cover books? HARD
{x} newspaper or magazine? MAGAZINE, W00T EGM
{x} sandals or sneakers? SANDALS OMG I MISS TEJAS
{x} wonder or amazement? WONDER
{x} red car or white car? RED
{x} happy and poor or sad and rich? POORLY HAPPY
{x} singing or dancing? SINGING
{x} hugging or kissing? UM...WISH I HAD A KISS
{x} purple or green? THIS QUESTION IS ALREADY ANSWERED
{x} a year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? FRIENDSHIP FOR LIFEXXOR
{x} mcdonalds or burger king? IT'S GOOD TO BE THE KING
{x} winter/summer/fall/spring? SPRINGTIME IS THE RIGHT TIME
{x} gloves or mittens? GLOVES
{x} chicken or fish? TCHKYKENNE

Y O U R F A V O R I T E
{x} number? 7
{x} holiday: none, really :/
{x} radio station? i miss 99.5 kiss, but the point here in STL is great
{x} place? my favorite place is wherever i'm standing when i finish something
{x} flower? Lauren?
{x} scent? freshly cut grass with burning gasoline in a small engine lawnmower
{x} if you could be anywhere, where would you be? in a movie
{x} what would you be doing there? being awesome, of course

C U R R E N T S
{x} current clothes: shants, free long-sleeve diving shirt, my shitty shoes that need to GTFO, and everything is dirty because my luggage got left in Houston
{x} current mood: worrysome because i'm procrastinating
{x} current taste: iced vanilla creme filled ZINGERS w00t
{x} current annoyance: this mythology paper i have to write, AND the fact that i didn't make nationals, AND THAT ALL MY CLEAN CLOTHES ARE IN HOUSTON!
{x} current smell: not alot, i'm congested
{x} current thing you ought to be doing: writing my paper
{x} current worry: that i will give up on school
{x} current sound: computer lab "hum"
{x} current fav food: mexican, cuz that meal we had in houston was AWESOME
{x} current fav shoes: NOT the ones i'm wearing, NOT my old sandals cuz they broke and are 2 yrs old, NOT my new sandals cuz they broke and are 2 MONTHS old, and NOT my bowling shoes cuz they are scuffed up...yeah i need new shoes
{x} current fav TV show: haven't watched alot, but i'll say Extreme Elimination Challenge
{x} current fav movie: Lost in Translation

L A S T P E R S O N
{x} you touched? Jon the trainer when i gave him a high five for giving me a ride home
{x} you talked to? KIM MARTIN DIE DIE DIE
{x} you hugged? Nicky when i grabbed her and jumped into the pool with her (she wasn't very happy bout that)
{x} you instant messaged? Jesse Mapleman
{x} you kissed? Anna in subway at the meet, i kissed her on the cheek because she said she hated me :D hahahaha
{x} you yelled at? Greg or myself
{x} you laughed with? Mapleman again

H A V E Y O U / A R E Y O U / D O Y O U
{x} considered a life of crime? yeah, but not long cuz crime doesn't pay..unless you're in a movie (and you're awesome ;) )
{x} considered being a hooker? i think i could pull it off
{x} split personalities? Alejandro, yes...but i killed him last summer
{x} schizophrenic? no way, we are perfectly normal
{x} obsessive? about games SOMETIMES
{x} obsessive compulsive? nope, no way
{x} panic? when packing, and in the morning
{x} anxiety? yeah, it bites, can't control it
{x} depressed? was kinda depressed last year with no Tejas and stuff, but i'm good now
{x} dream of mutilated bodies? once. very bad. let us not speak any more of this.
{x} understanding? i try my best
{x} open-minded? i have very BROAD horizons :D
{x} insecure? not really
{x} interesting? i learn something interesting about myself every day
{x} friendly? yeparoonies
{x} smart? yes
{x} moody? without food, and in the morning before i get food
{x} independent? not fully, but i wish i was
{x} hard working? sometimes
{x} organized? in no way shape or form am i organized
{x} healthy? Division I athlete, of COURSE i'm healthy...except for this cold i have had for a week which ruined my meet for me
{x} difficult? so i'm told
{x} attractive? didn't i just say i could pull off being a hooker? and i have been told that i'm hot by two random people two separate times (one time i was wearing only my SPEEDO)
{x} bored easily? not if there is something shiny nearby
{x} responsible? every now and then, am i reliable? no
{x} talkative? yeah, i ramble...it's the ADD talkin
{x} different? well i'm not THE SAME
{x} lonely? i'm beginning to think that it's part of my personality
{x} color your hair? no way Jose
{x} have a boyfriend or girlfriend? LONELY = YES
{x} ever get off the computer? to eat, pee, sleep, and dive

H A V E Y O U E V E R
{x} fallen for your best friend? i suppose so
{x} made out with JUST a friend? no...hardly made out with anyone
{x} been rejected? OH THE PAIN!!!!!
{x} been in love? been? am? will be? want to be? yes.
{x} used someone? nope
{x} physically hurt yourself on purpose? pain is a good diversion for emotions, NOT
{x} avoided someone for longer than a week? no, grudges are stoopid
{x} done something you regret? I regret buying a water gun when i was younger because i spent all my money on it

teffy, i added a few.

wow...busy me

whoa, the last time i posted was THURSDAY? Sorry guys, i didn't know that i have been keeping the files-de-jarman so un-public for so long...but i've been really HOLY CRAP really freaking busy. I missed a week of class for a big meet, and then had to come back after the long week-long meet, and take all the tests and do all the work that i had missed. And now that i've got it all back to normal, I LEAVE WEDNESDAY FOR ANOTHER MEET. So that makes things splendidly difficult for me in terms of schoolwork, but in terms of diving, i really want to do good at this meet...so um...wish me luck. do it now. wish immediately.

after wishing, please feel free to give me any suggestions on what i should major in, because i have no clue, and i have to decide by the end of this semester....SO TELL ME. DO IT NOW.

hope everyone has been safe with all this wind, cuz my hair has been flying around my head like a polyp or something...i really need to get that trimmed...ANYWAY

i'll post later.

wish luck, tell major. GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111oneonetoomanyones

lack of posts

For teffy, who is great...i shall now post.

I need to shave, but i lost the charger chord for my electric razor. So i can't shave.
This is a conundrum.

whew!, that took it outta me. sure feels good to post again. :D i hope everybody has been checking my team's website and reading on how my team did at conference. I could expound on that thought, but it would be senseless and i'm tired anyway.

once again, teffy is great....and school is not great.